Single motherhood

Single motherhood is really difficult. I cannot begin to tell you how my respect for single mums have grown leaps and bounds. Parenting requires patience...single parenting requires the patience of a saint..something I do not have. Sasha has noticed Doug's absence, but as long as I tell her that he is at work, she accepts the absence. I can see her filing away the information in her mind, taking the time to comprehend (as far as any 2 year old is able to comprehend extended absences), but still not really getting it. She is feeling a bit more insecure, evidenced by one specific action at daycare. Usually when I drop her off, she will rush to her friends and I have to call her back so I can give her a kiss. This morning however, just as she was rushing off, she turned to me and asked "Can I have a hug?" It was the cutest thing ever and I gave her a huge hug and told her that I would pick up my bestest big girl at 5pm. Of course I had to get home and give D a call to tell him what happened. Thats another thing about single parenthood..not having someone to share these moments with.

I have been keeping myself more than occupied while Sash is at daycare. Going through pageproofs for another forthcoming article. This has been more challenging than usual because D has my laptop and I am using an old laptop of mine that we keep for Sash to play with. His laptop sort of acted up the night before he was leaving for Beijing and due to flight times etc, he had to take mine with him and I am stuck with an older laptop that is not wireless enabled. Sometimes technology can be such a pain.

I am still waiting for the replacement Dinis. We have one that she uses at daycare so I am resorting to taking that home with us for use on non-daycare days and nights. Surprisingly, she was not overly upset when she was told in Kingston that Dini was in Toronto and that we would have to wait until we got home to see him. In the meantime, she had Arnold (a snoring pig) which suited her fine. Until she saw Dini II at daycare....There was a touch and go moment on the train when she was looking through the pics on the camera and she came across one of her sleeping with Dini on the Toronto-Montreal leg..but we distracted her with a potato chip. I have ordered 2 Dini's as I have discovered that Jellycats is discontinuing the series. Lesson learned...when Dylan finds a comfort item, we shall buy clones/replacements galore. I hope he chooses something like Dini. I have bought him a Jellycat Sheep for him to try out. While these toys are bulky, they have come in handy as pillows on those uncomfortable plane/train rides.